I was just looking at my blog and I realized that I have not really posted anything in quite a while... any substance, at least. I'm doing okay over here in Genieland, enjoying holiday treats and festivities, watching my shoulders grow, feeling my back get bigger, and inevitably feeling myself get softer. We all know it has to happen. Being 5'6" and 111.8 pounds is not ideal or healthy, but yet, I'm still not happy with the extra padding I have accumulated. I am happy, however, enjoying life, spending time with friends and family, not having to "miss out" on things I truly want to partake in. I often remind myself that I need these extra calories to focus on building those lagging body parts.
I have been doing a lot of reading... soaking up whatever info I can. Why? I'm not sure. I'm not going to follow these random diets that I am looking over (LOL!), but I do enjoy reading about them... It's amazing what useful info you can pull from a diet that you have no intentions of following.
I have also been looking at a lot of pics. The thought of hitting the national stage is daunting and intimidating, but I am willing to bust my ass to try to look the part. Gah! Pictures of ladies in last callouts look amazing. I think what in THE world have I got myself into? I find myself looking at suits and their crazy price tags. Then my mind starts to calculate show costs. Entry fees are outrageous at that level (why?!), travelling, hotels, Becca better be there to tan me so that I don't have to spend $100 on tanning (LOL!), do I need new shoes? Mine are pretty narsty. Maybe I will just wear the same suit and save dough. OOooh! That's a pretty suit.
See what's going on in my crazy head? Seth and I have been discussing some major life decisions as well. It can get overwhelming, but somehow I am staying calm (for now!). All I know is that I am going to my 2010 the best year I possibly can. *deep breath*