Phat to Fat?!

Happy holidays Bloggerfam!!!

I was just looking at my blog and I realized that I have not really posted anything in quite a while... any substance, at least. I'm doing okay over here in Genieland, enjoying holiday treats and festivities, watching my shoulders grow, feeling my back get bigger, and inevitably feeling myself get softer. We all know it has to happen. Being 5'6" and 111.8 pounds is not ideal or healthy, but yet, I'm still not happy with the extra padding I have accumulated. I am happy, however, enjoying life, spending time with friends and family, not having to "miss out" on things I truly want to partake in. I often remind myself that I need these extra calories to focus on building those lagging body parts.

I have been doing a lot of reading... soaking up whatever info I can. Why? I'm not sure. I'm not going to follow these random diets that I am looking over (LOL!), but I do enjoy reading about them... It's amazing what useful info you can pull from a diet that you have no intentions of following.

I have also been looking at a lot of pics. The thought of hitting the national stage is daunting and intimidating, but I am willing to bust my ass to try to look the part. Gah! Pictures of ladies in last callouts look amazing. I think what in THE world have I got myself into? I find myself looking at suits and their crazy price tags. Then my mind starts to calculate show costs. Entry fees are outrageous at that level (why?!), travelling, hotels, Becca better be there to tan me so that I don't have to spend $100 on tanning (LOL!), do I need new shoes? Mine are pretty narsty. Maybe I will just wear the same suit and save dough. OOooh! That's a pretty suit.

See what's going on in my crazy head? Seth and I have been discussing some major life decisions as well. It can get overwhelming, but somehow I am staying calm (for now!). All I know is that I am going to my 2010 the best year I possibly can. *deep breath*


Anonymous said...

I don't like my extra padding either...although Mike does??

Good luck with your life decisions!

Mellissa said...

2010 is going to be a great year, I know it!

Angela said...

You are going to be great up there on that national stage...dont you worry ;) And i hear you on the padding....i hate it...and me...just a few more days....LOL!

Jen said...

Gahhh, I don't even want to talk about the extra padding lol..

Genie, you are going to be GREAT in 2010.. You always finish what you start and this year will be no exception..

Anonymous said...

if you believe that you own the stage then you will! i have no doubt tha tyou will do amazing at nationals :) can't wait to meet you there either!!

Becca said...

Um, duh, I am totally going to be there to do your stain!!
I would not miss it for the world.

Extra padding? PUHLEEZ. We won't go there.

Genie honestly I LOVE LOVE LOVE Your fuscia suit. If you want to save some dough, just throw a few more stones on it like that Erin Stern one we were talking about and you've got a pro level suit. I thought it fit you so well...I love it.
Writing you now about life decisions.

Genie said...

APE: Thank you!! I will need lots of luck. I hope it all pans out okay. OMG, speaking of padding, I have a funny one I will have to share with you. LOL! I'll email ya!

MELISSA: It is indeed!!! You know what's funny? Even though we have never met, I am so excited for you and your new career endeavor! That news made my day. Here's to new beginnings and fresh starts in 2010! Cheers!

ANGELA: Thank you so much for the vote of confidence. It means a lot to me.

I only like padding in my bras. HAHA

JEN: LOL! Padding everywhere! At least we're not alone in our misery, right? I joke. I'm not in misery. :-D

Thank you SO MUCH! I hope you know how much you have helped me w/ your comments. You are so great at providing me with boosts of confidence. You seem to always have just the right things to say. I appreciate it so much! Thank you!

LIZZY: LOL, are you sure you are commenting on the right blog? I've never rolled into a show w/ that confidence.

OMG! I can't wait to meet you!!! I'm looking forward to sharing a gazillion laughs!

BECCA: I love you. :) In a heterosexual way, of course... but you are my type, though. LMAO

My fuschia suit doesn't really fit. You saw how I rigged it with my madd sewing skills (err, non sewing skills). Maybe I can get someone to fix it up fo real. I will thinking about adding more crystals a la Erin Stern's suit. That suit, new, is $550. If I can sell my hot pink and my old suit it would be a possibility? Ahhh, wishful thinking. I just love that suit. I have a suit crush on it. LOL

Melissa Cunningham said...

little miss genie!! first off, you will do simply AMAZING at the national level! Becca and I are not kidding when we fill your brain with awesome ideas that you WILL make the arnold next year as a have "the look",you have the drive,the dedication,the is always nerve wracking to take things to the next level,and i dont think there is anything you can do to take away your nerves for the national stage..EXCEPT to just stay focused,stay positive and DO YOUR BEST-i mean your personal best-do your homework,get your nutrition perfected,get the right suit, and most important-pose until it is second nature, and i mean really get it down to a T so that when you do freak out on stage,your brain will still remeber how to pose,pose,smile,keep it tight,pose,smile,blah blah blah-you get the idea...and DONT worry about what all the other gals look like-you have every right to be on the same stage as them,you EARNED it just like they did-an "even playing field" so to speak....
you seem to have the right mind set going into the 2010 year,so just keep it up!!!!
and oh yeah,LOL about the extra padding comment-gotta love it and hate it at the same time! we wont go into what i think about my extra fluff-will save that one for after the holidays!
anyways,sorry for the mini novel here-just wanted to give you a postive boost..i cant wait to follow your training in 2010! hopefully one day we will be on the NPC stage together....even though you might scare me on stage-i know that if we ever got a blogger show get together we would be instant friends!! (and yes that was a hint-becca,april,tasha,jessica,and anyone else......i might be a fan in the audience but still want to see you gals on stage!)

Genie said...

Ohmygosh, Melissa! How did I miss your comment?! LOL! Thank you SO MUCH! I am semi-focused at the moment, not 100%, but now that the food holidays have passed, I plan on putting my 110% effort into this. I want to and have to put my all into this to even think about becoming Pro. Funny how earlier this year (even in the Fall), I hadn't even considered it. *sigh*

Best of luck with your move and your newest news! :)